The first three times I heard the knock He knocked on my heart.
His knocks weren’t loud or brazen. His knocks where gentle and steady.
Each three occasions He only knocked once.
Each three occasions I knew it could only be Jesus.
✊The first knock I knew was different but I wasn’t sure Who it was but I knew it was important.
✊The second time I heard the knock I knew it was Him and I couldn’t believe that He would come again after the last time I turned my back to Him.
✊The third time He knocked, I knew it was Him but yet I was still in disbelief as to how and why He keeps coming back for me after I kept disappointing Him.
I was so young when He knocked and I opened.
But before I opened, I quickly tidied up and pushed and squished some things into the cupboard. I shoved some boxes under beds and behind couches. I quickly dusted some cabinets and shelves and made sure to look as tidy as possible. I opened the door with a hushed breath as if I was expecting Him all this time….but He knew.
I was so worried to not open the cupboards and move things around because I knew stuff would fall out and everything will just be a mess. I didn’t want to be a mess but when I eventually did make a mess in another corner of my life, I decided to burrow myself into that mess instead of actually coming to Him with my mess. I hid myself in my new mess and didn’t want to look to Him and He left the room.
I knew He never left me. But I knew He left the room because I ignored Him.
🙏Much later, years later. I called on Him. I yearned for His knock, His company, I longed for Him. I longed for Jesus. I knocked the only way I could, I prayed.
✊That fourth time,He knocked again. 🥹
I didn’t care for the mess, I couldn’t care for how things looked and I ran to that door. I ran to Jesus. I opened my whole life to Him.
No more hiding.
No more lying.
No more pretending.
I gave Him everything. I gave Him all I am.
He became my Everything. He became my All.
He took every room apart, He uprooted that rotten foundation. He laid His new foundation. He became my new foundation. He helped me open the cupboards and sort through all that fell out and sort through all those once hidden boxes.
Till this day, He makes all things new.
Till this day, He cleans out all that’s not from Him.
Till this day, my life belongs to Him and all I am will forever be His.
He is Jesus.
The Lover of my soul.
The One who gave it all for me.
My One and Only Lord & Saviour.
By His grace and love I am saved.
Because of Jesus, I know my Father.
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I pray you do not ignore His knock.
I pray you open the door just as you are.
Revelation 3:20 | Luke 11:9-10
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